I have not posted in while. I have been so engrossed in Webber and how he is doing. His numbers have dropped significantly and have stayed that way for several days. It becomes harder to shoot at these low numbers because you don't want to put him in danger, but you also don't want to back off and then have his numbers start to climb. There have been several times lately that I just bit the bullet. I am here at night to monitor for as long as I need to. Up until this point he doesn't drop really really low. Last night was his lowest for me to see yet (41). He was just laying there like he was going to go to sleep. I wanted him to get up and eat!!! He had always in the past gone to snack when he numbers were dropping so I started to worry about when I am not here. What if I am at work and he doesn't get up and it just keeps dropping. I am scared to death that every evening when I come home from work I am going to find him in a coma. I know that is extreme but that was it always in the back of our minds. What if.....
I come home every day from work during my lunch hour to test. Today when I got home I did not expect his numbers to be low because he started off in the 80's. He surprised me and was only at 50. I waited til after I ate lunch and tested again before I left. He had dropped only one point and was at 49. However, we have been told that when a newbie kitty drops below 50 it is time to decrease the dose. He has had his dose decreased twice since Monday. So when tonights shot time came around I really didn't know what to do. Part of me wanted to decrease his dose again like I was told to. But another part of me was saying that he has only been at 0.75U for three cycles. Not even a whole 48 hours. He could still be dropping from what is left in his shed from the higher doses. I sure don't want to decrease and have his BG start to rise.
Ugh! This is not a perfect science and I am sure there are going to be plenty of times that we are going to yo-yo his doses until we get it just right. I guess in my mind I wanted this to go so smoothly. Just drop the doses until he didn't need it any more. But isn't that what everyone wants? Of course!!!
There were not the usual angels on the board today that are so experienced in giving dosage advice. So I just went with my gut this evening. I'm just about in tears and writing in Webber's blog to just get all of this out of my system has seemed to help alot. I do not want to put Webber in danger at all. And I have all my tools that I may need should he drop too low. Maybe no one being there to guide me was a sign from god that it my turn to take complete control and make this decision for Webber on my own tonight.
We shall see how the night goes......
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I'm a little late to this party, but I just want to say that I totally know where you are coming from. Reading this is like reading my own blog (if I had one, that is).
ReplyDeleteI worry about Buzz going into distress in the middle of the night, too. Not as much anymore, but when she was first dx'd. She had ketones and I was so so so worried about DKA. I made myself literally sick with worry, and I know I drove her crazy too. ;)
And now with the Lantus and the decrease...I just went through the same thing a few days ago, and am still seeing how it plays out. She had a decrease from 1.50 to 1.25. We held that for only 24 hours before decreasing again to 1.0. They said that another decrease isn't normally recommended that soon but she was in the 40s on that cycle and we had fed her some HC food. We are on day 2 of the decrease and I am still not sure if it will stick or if we will have to go back up to 1.25.
Anyway, all that was a long-winded way of saying that I really do understand this rollercoaster of worry and hesitancy that you are on.
I think you are doing great making decisions on your own, even though it's scary. :)